Dean. competitive swimming is my game. i figured i could be a lifeguard but that means i would be letting more swimmers drown in the pool. my speech and my thoughts doesn't seem to have a common understanding with each other. i hardly have time to take new pictures of myself. materializing architect. blatant, derailed, mirthful, coy. on government service. wtf.

birthday: 13061987

location: singapore

killing time bag

photgraphy, photoshop, competitive swimming, brown paper, long bus rides, lifeguarding, stoning while flipping thru GQ, chilling with pals at any coffee branch, music, purchasing A&F and American Eagle Outfitters, reading literature text, submerging through books that says World History 1900 - 1997 & excessive clubbing.

during my funeral wake, please play for me these songs below, so as to appease my soul. besides it may provide entertainment for the guests.


1. Tainted Love - Marilyn Manson.

sometimes I feel
i've got to run away
i've got tog et away
from the pain you drive in the heart of me
the love we share seems to go nowhere
and I've lost my light for I toss and turn I can't sleep at night


2. Perfect - Simple Plan.

i can't pretend that
i'm alright
and you can't change me


3. Untitled - Simple Plan.

how could this happen to me
i made my mistakes
i’ve got no where to run


4. Shape - Sugababes

i've always played it safe nothing's ever safe
give me the courage to back my own convictions


5. Rhinoceros - Smashing Pumpkin

open your eyes
to these must I lie?


6. Petrified to be God-like - Susie Suh

you think you know me and you know me
but you dont know how scared I am


7. Candleburn - Dishwalla

tonight she'll give herself away
she'll break apart all by herself
its so easy how we come undone


8. Back At One - Brian Mcknight

you came and breathed new life into this loney heart of mine
you threw out the lifeline
just in the nick of time


9. Angels or Devils - Dishwalla

I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold .


10. Glycerine - Bush

we live in a wheel
where everyone steals
but when we rise it's like strawberry fields


11. Wonderwall - Oasis

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
and all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that I would like to say to you
but I don't know how
because maybe
you're gonna be the one that saves me
and after all
you're my wonderwall.


12. Try - Nelly Furtado

the more I learn the more I cry
as I say goodbye to the way of life
i thought I had designed for me

all of the moments that already passed
we'll try to go back and make them last
all of the things we want each other to be
we never will be
and that's wonderful, and that's life


13. What If God Was One Of Us - Sheryl Crow

What if god was one of us,
just a slob like one of us,
just a stranger on the bus trying to make his way home?


14. Ghost of You and Me - BBMak

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me


15. From a Shell - Lisa Germano

But the world fell down with some people still around,

there is love, there is love to be found.

16. Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

17. the Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice

ohh, did I say that I loathe you?

did I say that I want to leave it all behind..

18. Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

you can't break my spirit, it's my dreams you take.

and I love you, I swear that's true.

i cannot live without you.

goodbye my lover.

goodbye my friend.

you have been the one.

you have been the one for me.

19. Coffee & Cigarettes - Michlle Featherstone

I thought my problems would just dissipate

and all my pain would be in yesterday

20. Storm - Lifehouse

i know u didn't bring me out here to drown

so why am i ten feet under and upside down

barely surviving has become my purpose

cause i'm so used to living underneath the surface.

21. Ordinary People - John Legend

i know I misbehaved,

and you've made your mistakes,

and we both still got room left to grow.

and though love sometimes hurts,

i still put you first,

and we'll make this thing work,

but I think we should take it slow.

22. Dark Blue - Jacks Mannequin

23. Till I Get Over You - Michelle Branch

you just bring me down

so I'm counting the tears

till I get over you.

my list could go on, but since im damn bumped out, i shall stop at this point. songs affects us in many ways. it accompany us through our mood swings, affect our performance level, aide us to recovery and reminds us of someone special in our life (lets not get emo here). whatever the situation it maybe, songs plays an important part to an individual, a chance for him/her to distinguish them self from this concrete mass of people. as for me, some songs holds a special meaning that marks significant events. my taste for songs are eclectic; i listen and pay close attention more to the words/lyrics.

rehearsals for NDP are draining up my energy level, despite the fact that i brought a bottle of Ribena. but wearing that no.1 uniform is all that matters.

i need to catch up with my friends. dinner guys? i find ssgt h.moustache darn fucking irritating. haha

eh, are you still with me?